frustated week

i called it a frustated week or perhaps a frustated month. it has been a month -more- since i follow the training at Bandung, East java. After that, i felt that all of my days are frustating. This one month and a half, there's so many things to do. renamed, input data, and others. I almost don't have time for my self. Then, the situation is gone complicated. Everything is become mess and even worst. She, my boss, fault me more and more. Angry along time. And now, guess she hated me.Because of this mess. It's all because of I didn' work as soon as she wanted. Some of asked me to apologizing. I would if she really want to forgive me. But as along as I knew, she doesn't really want to forgive. She'll always told about those person's mistakes. I know, fault someone would gonna make you better. But too much remembering would not good too.

about Idols

first of all, i'm so sorry if my today's posting is made you guys angry and want to kill me :)
all of us must have an idol. someone that become your figure and you thinking about although they aren't your love -what a silly-
but, how far are you like them? you are a fan of them or their biggest fan? when we becoming a fan, sometimes we forgot how far are we and them. the idol we like is only one in the world, while the fans are around the world. let's think, become an idol is a good thing right? but that's a right thing. it's impossible one fan with many idols. there's just an idol with many fans. I do have an idol, but the bad side is sometimes i felt that i'm in love with my idol. It sounds silly but, I could imagine that I am his girl, his date, someone he thinking about everyday and every night even the craziest, I could imagine that all of what he's done are just for me. really... stupid. I don't know does every girl thinking about the same thing with me. but, yeah, if I saw the faces of fans -ladies are more hysteric- I know they are fall in love to their idols, but different fall in love of course. You might be really fall in love, or just 'fall in love'

broken heart

What do you know about it? I don't know, I just want to talk about it. Many kind of broken heart anyway. Broken heart to your love, your friend, even your brother. In some cases, to your idol. Everybody must have an idol. Someone, a figure that you really like and become your setter. Maybe you really like him/her deadly or just like. You become his big fan or an ordinary fan. I have an idol too. A singer. He come from Korea, one of country that I want to come and learn the language. But I can't called a big fan. I'm afraid I can't control myself when I become a big fan of him. Beside, I'm a kind of people that easy to fall in love, it doesn't always mean love for a couple. It could be mean, like of something. Just like when you like to a special food. I have a reason to not to be a big fan. Because i'm avoid a broken heart. wise or not, sometimes we fell in love with what we like, in many kind of way to express it. But, for this let's comeback to the shape of love to your idol.
Do you ever fall in love to your idol? I ever, but then I tried to forget that. Actually fall in love is a normal thing. To whoever you are. But remember who you are, where do you live, and many things. The point is, look at our self, before we love or like someone. And ready for broken heart

movie-goers

that's right I'm a movie-goers now. But unfortunately, not the all new movie that i watched. I just watching the movie that I want to watch. And i just watch a good movie. It's a Japanese drama. Well, actually I don't too much like drama. I always guessed that drama is have a hyperbolic story. But not with this one. This is kind of teenager movie, simple but meaningful. And I like with the story. The title is Taiyo no Uta. In english is A Song for Sun. It's tell about a girl who has a weird illness but she always optimist to run her life. Although she just lost her spirit when she tough that the boy she love is knew about her illness. But in the end. However she tried, when finally the death took her away, she still have spirit to make her dream come true and make people around her always smile and the most important, leaving a good sense to everyone and become an inspiration. I'd like to become like her, the main star of the movie. She's always fight till the end of her life. Because, honestly I don't have those spirit yet. But i wish I have it.

Bad Day

Ini bukan judul lagu dari Bon Jovi atau Daniel Powter. Tapi harus kuakui dengan sedikit kesulitan berbesar hati kalau hari ini memang hari burukku. Sangat buruk malah. bahasa gaulnya ancur.
Kalau aku berharap aku bisa mengulang hari ini supaya jadi lebih baik bisa saja. Tapi aku tahu Tuhan nggak akan mengabulkan itu.
Kau tahu, hari ini siaranku sangat kacau. Memang, setiap orang pasti membuat kesalahan, tapi hari ini aku pikir benar-benar kacau. Hah... malu banget kalau mengingatnya. Aku harap tidak terulang lagi.

many jobs

alright! this is a weekend. This is saturday and not a busy day. Tapi tetap saja, karena dalam kurang lebih dua minggu lagi radio tempatku bekerja akan men-dunia alias streaming, aku mendapat banyak PR untuk meng-input lagu-lagu yang belum masuk ke database. Merepotkan sebenarnya, karena banyak sekali yang harus aku lakukan. selain me-rename lagu-lagu, aku juga harus menyelesaikan laporan akhir bulan, mengirim tiga edisi chart lagu Indonesia terbaru, plus yang paling baru untuk minggu ini -Ya Tuhan, aku harap para label tidak memutuskan hubungan kami yang sudah cukup baik ini- membuat script untuk siaran teman-teman, untuk diriku sendiri juga. Dan meng-edit bebrapa record. Haduh.... harus berapa banyak lagi aku menyebutkan pekerjaanku? Sampai-sampai aku berpikir kalau aku nggak akan ada waktu untuk istirahat. Tapi aku harus istirahat kan? Yep, aku sedang berpikir apakah sebaiknya aku membeli sebuah diary atau agenda lagi untuk mencatat semua jadwal pekerjaanku? Mungkin.
Malah aku juga sedikit menyesal ketika menyadari ada tugas dari mbak Ina yang belum aku laksanakan. Aku harap dia maklum kalau aku juga butuh sedikit istirahat -hanya sedikit masa nggak bisa?!-
Ok, aku tahu perusahaan sedang butuh uang untuk operasional dan persiapan streaming, tapi aku harap sedikit menunggu tidak akan menganggu. Toh, aku nggak mengulurnya sampai akhir bulan. Ya kan? Sudahlah, aku berharap untuk ke depan kami semua akan baik-baik saja. Meskipun ku akui kesibukan seperti ini membuatku tidak sempat berpikir untuk para lelaki -kalau untuk yang satu ini I wish my mother could wait for this, meaning for her son-in-law to-be-

It's July

It's July..
yeah, it's july. Nggak kerasa sudah bulan ketujuh. closer with the moment, or we usually called 'it' day. You know, the day we'll around the world. I wish nothing's wrong with. Semoga semuanya baik-baik aja. Gosh! tapi aku masih sering mengantuk dan perlu waktu lama untuk menyelesaikan pekerjaanku. Bisa nggak ya? Ini benar-benar tantangan yang menyenangkan. Tapi tetap saja, kadang ada rasa nggak percaya diri ketika kita mau mencobanya. Kadang ada satu masa di mana kepercayaan diri kita surut. tapi aku -sekali lagi- berharap I never got it. Maksudku, oke kalau kita kadang mersa nggak percaya diri. Tapi aku berharap itu nggak lama. Aku harap -harinya tinggal 17 hari lagi- semuanya bakal lancar di hari itu. Tidak ada kekurangan yang justru akan menyusahkan kami. amin. Aku selalu berharap yang terbaik.