about Idols

first of all, i'm so sorry if my today's posting is made you guys angry and want to kill me :)
all of us must have an idol. someone that become your figure and you thinking about although they aren't your love -what a silly-
but, how far are you like them? you are a fan of them or their biggest fan? when we becoming a fan, sometimes we forgot how far are we and them. the idol we like is only one in the world, while the fans are around the world. let's think, become an idol is a good thing right? but that's a right thing. it's impossible one fan with many idols. there's just an idol with many fans. I do have an idol, but the bad side is sometimes i felt that i'm in love with my idol. It sounds silly but, I could imagine that I am his girl, his date, someone he thinking about everyday and every night even the craziest, I could imagine that all of what he's done are just for me. really... stupid. I don't know does every girl thinking about the same thing with me. but, yeah, if I saw the faces of fans -ladies are more hysteric- I know they are fall in love to their idols, but different fall in love of course. You might be really fall in love, or just 'fall in love'